havent been updating my blog for a long long while i.e. in the sense of already started entries at that point of time but not completing n posting them. will update n post these gradually, but its not gonna take that fast.

feeling dam sian now over that problem, i've been feeling very paranoid since thinking the worst out of it. maybe i need a pyschiatrist. nobody understands what im feeling right now, the fear and uncertainty of what lies ahead. people around me even my family seem oblivious to my worries, this is what i feel, and think im throwing tantrums for nothing... really upset and hurt. only my mum understands what im feeling now, though she thinks that problem isnt that bad.

things arent going too well for me, besides this problem, finding a suitable job isnt that easy. there are thousands of postings out there, but none seems to suit my requirements, not that im fussy but i would really wana work in the industry that im familiar and capable of.

i dun ask for anything more, just wish i could be happy every day. hope luck will shine on me real soon.